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Waiting For Adventure or Making Excuses

I’ve never been much into sports. Sure, I played kickball and softball in the neighborhood, but that was when I lived with a family with three boys and was told to go outside to “blow the stink off” of me. I won’t get into the story about living there right now. I also played games out in the street when I lived at home. I did have some good times, especially with my childhood best friend (who is now my niece).

One year I became interested in trying out for the track team. I loved to run. For whatever reason, however, that didn’t happen. I had been running around the track, getting myself ready for tryouts and wouldn’t you know it? I got strep throat. So, I was stuck in bed for three days with my foster sister, who I had caught it from. By the time I that was over, my body had gotten so stiff from lying in bed all that time I walked all hunched over in crazy pain. I don’t know why I didn’t try again the next year. It may have been because I moved which meant going to yet another school.

I’ve also never been very adventurous, depending on what your definition of adventure is. I think the most adventurous thing that I ever did was to join the army. Back then their slogan was, “It’s not a job, it’s an adventure”. Yeah, until I came home and only worked two days a month and two weeks a year. How boring. Except when I went to Germany. That wasn’t much of an advenure, really, but it sure was fun. Even at work.

There are things I would love to do. I would love to travel. I would love to be of service and travel. I just haven’t figured out how to do that yet. I haven’t forgotten about my adventure to California. My daughter is still 17 and it’s not something that she would be up for, though. So, am I making excuses? I don’t think so. I’m not afraid to do something. I just don’t know how to get started with a child still at home. I certainly won’t leave her behind or take her with me if she doesn’t want to go.

Once I’m on my own, without any kids left at home, I don’t know how I’m going to feel about it or what I’m going to do. Who knows? I just might do somthing I never dreamed I would’ve done before. Or, I just might do something I’m been wanting to do, but have been too afraid to do it. Hey, since I don’t need a driver’s license to drive an atv…Heh. My kids would crack up just watching me get on one. They probably wouldn’t believe that I’d even try to start it up. Are they right? Hmm…

I sure do enjoy some spontaneity.