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Life’s Roller Coaster Rides & Synchronicities

I love my life. Even with it’s emotional roller coaster rides that I sometimes put myself on subconsciously. Here I am, 46 years old, a grandmother of two and now I have a daughter who will bw 18 in less than two months. That could mean being on my own for the first time in over 20 years.

To top it off, right now I’m living this craziest most fun synchronistic life I can imagine for someone who doesn’t get out much. And I’m once again riding a roller coaster.

I don’t eve like roller coasters. The last time I rode one I was 16. It was fun. And yes, it was exhilarating. But now, I’d rather just watch everyone else as their hair flies up in the air making them look as scared as they probably are. Except for those who truly like the rush and the butterflies in the stomach.

I don’t know. Givin’ a chance, maybe I would try one out again. Maybe a smaller one at first. So I can ease my way into it. I know they’re a lot bigger and there are more to choose from than when I rode one.

For now, I’m going to ride this roller coaster in my life and see if I can learn how to let go a little more. Easing my way, loosening up a little more each step of the way. If there were an easy way to surrender all immediately, I would.

Then there would be no need for the ups and downs. Then again, I don’t know. Maybe not. I’ve always enjoyed going up and back down a hill when riding in a car. I do love those fluttering butterflies tickling me on the inside.

So, where the heck are the exit signs because although I’m enjoying this life-size amusement park, I’d like to know the less painful and quickest escape route possible, just in case. Not that I’d be quick to use them, though. As soon as I see hope in the horizon, I know that it’s not time to give up. And guess what? There’s always hope.

So, the next time you are ready to make that quick exit from an situation that you are finding hopeless, remember to wait just a little bit longer. And then wait some more.